So, ugh.
I’ve been a frazzled, overwhelmed, resentful woman, wife, and mother.* I apologized to my family today but only after I blew up and said something so mean-spirited and ungentle and terrible. And it just really sucks, because of course an apology can’t un-do the thing I said, or the way I’ve been feeling and how that’s likely affected my family. Because: of course when I get to a place where I’m this pissed and pent-up and all, by then my family is usually acting like asses because they rely on me (probably too much) to be a good Mama and a decent person. So it’s kind of like a Square One kind of deal. And I need all the help, good will, and good fortune I can get.
^^^ Me, during better times, and incidentally with my hair, not the chemically-altered version. & my boy. Telling me a story. & I love him.
* Yes, despite – on Thursday – having a wonderful 33rd birthday full of friends and family treating me very, very well.
Square one is not such a bad place to be. It can be a good thing for kids to see that we can acknowledge our shortcomings and ask for do-overs. Nobody’s perfect and giving them to opportunity to see our imperfections and forgive us for them will maybe help them forgive themselves and move on when they make mistakes. Forgiving and moving on can be difficult skills to learn. I know my kids get lots of practice. 😉
(New here, loving your blog.)
you need a hug.
(hug)
Karen
Love the picture and love the update of today’s utterly beautiful-sounding breakfast. So good that we get to start over all the time despite ourselves.
Someone told me once that I can start my day over any time I want to. I thought they were nuts. But turns out, I can. It does help.