I received two emails today, hard upon the heels of one another. They read, in part, as follows:
you happy? For the week following your email, I haven’t been able to do a lick of email work – AND IT’S YOUR FAULT. Engrossed as I’ve been with reading your stuff, I’ve kept wondering if there is an end to this wonderful tunnel of love & freedom. Lovit, lovit, lovit! Where did you get the devotion-to-kids, the insights, the compassion, the courage to be so open and vulnerable and brave the brickbats that are inevitably visited upon anyone as free? I’ve worked on it for more than the last half of my life (I’m 81), and I just get stronger and more dedicated. But then, I’m a trained Buddhist (Bodhisattva), with 40 years of daily meditation practice, so slings and arrows are just slings and arrows, nothing personal, nothing more.
I believe I love you. (So much for training in detachment.)
I am writing because I want to say thank you. There is no way for you to know how much you have inspired and uplifted me simply by being you and sharing it. I love to read your blog. At first, it was just out of curiosity. A friend or another directed me to it. I honestly don’t remember where, how or even who. (As a former Hoquiamite myself it could have been any number of people.)
I was deeply impacted by the realness, the simple beauty of life through your expressions. It has helped me challenge myself to be a better person. I find myself re thinking so many things because of your perspective. Thank you for putting yourself out there. For sharing pieces of your heart and soul. It has made a difference in my life. I just wanted you to know. 🙂 Have a great weekend!
Yeah. So, there’s no downside to these missives. Thank you, readers – those who write, yes, but also those who read here and in any way find themselves helped, or pleased, or laugh. I know I can be so terribly dark-sided and I am glad to know that is not the only thing people find in me.
So, thank you Universe.
My daughter has been a solitary animal of late, little satisfied with her lot in life despite our (for the most part) compassionate acceptance of her difficulties. She is quick to disappear into a book, sitting out in my mother’s old pickup truck in the afternoon sunshine. I am both sad for her sufferings and impressed by her ability to be alone with herself, her autonomy. She comes in a half hour later and is calmed; she seeks me out. During the day, as busy as I get I try to lay down or sit down and, like our male cat, she comes to find me and be next to me. This is when she opens up, when she heals from whatever has been hurting her. We lay in bed together and I feel her hands gently patting at me and I smell her hair (sweet or creepy? you decide!) and I know she is finding something in me that helps her find her way.
I am seriously so glad my kids got their looks from Ralph, or someone else. Seriously, it’s no big deal being homely. Just, it’s boring. Come on, you know what I’m talking about.
Oh, and don’t be all commenting that I’m pretty or whatever. Or I will roll my eyes so hard you’ll hear them clicking.
well, you are pretty. So, go roll your eyes. You do it at me anyway. 😉
I’m so glad that people write such wonderful letters to you. You are indeed, inspiring.
Perhaps your daughter only prefers to be with you during your quiet times (relaxing, reading, bedtime). I find that busy people tend to have an intensity that says, “Please wait for your turn.” The quieter times are the best times to connect. I’m sure you know all of this already, but I decided play Mr. Obvious.
I’ve decided “sweet”, not “creepy”.
Thank you. You are both indeed kind.
My kids are ALWAYS in my business no matter what I do. But… perhaps my daughter has come to feel guilty for intruding. I will have to think on this one.