Shit is BROKEN.
My computer is broken. I can’t see colors on my screen. This has been like – a month now? At first I thought, OK well, at least I can still type. But the lack of colors is more debilitating than I thought. I haven’t been able to blog my (considerable amount of) sewing – and I haven’t been able to update my Etsy listings either.
Shit is BROKEN.
Our cars are broken. Ralph’s has something sort of serious – a loud clunking sound now and then – enough we’ve stuck it in the driveway until we can (afford to) fix it. So Ralph and I have both been biking a lot, yes he’s been biking to the college and all. My car – good Lord! – a broken window, busted all the way out driver’s-side. It’s been broken several days now but we are fortunately in a dry spell. That’s going to end any minute though at which point I will have to go with some plastic.
Shit is BROKEN.
My kidneys are broken. The doctor is probably going to recommend something icky as I have some part of the kidney possibly blocked off. It took about a year for me to begin to accept the pain. Now I’m trying to accept the fatigue and the nausea. The fact I’m trying to accept it means, maybe I will be there soon.
SHIT is broken.
Hutch is ill. We are hoping it is just random awfulness he (somehow!) got to sneak into his gullet. I am trying not to obsess it is something worse. He is weak and trembly and not eating food and if you know Hutch, that is weird AF.
SHIT IS BROKEN —
Most disastrous of all, our cat Hamilton is missing. Today has been one week since we saw her. Today is one week. I am sick over this. Just sick. We miss her so much.
Today despite all this I did my best to be kind, to treat my family and friends with consideration, and to attend my volunteer work.
What else can I do?
Keep on keepin’ on.
Know that while your shit may be broken, you being honest and open about it helps others. Personally it is good (and refreshing) to know that I’m not the only one going through hard times. I can relate to your blog in ways that I can’t to others. Lifestyle blogs tend to be so nice and fluffy, full of sponsors and no talk of financial hardships.
I found your blog through Natural Life Magazine. I’m not sure if I’ve commented before, but I have been reading for a while. I laughed when I realized where you are from: I live in Indianapolis now, but I’m from Aberdeen.
{{{HUGS}}}
I am sorry about all the shit and the broken. And I really hope your dog is okay and your kitty comes home. You remind me with your honesty to keep my focus as I acknowledge both the reality of daily living (which can include a lot of broken) and the aspirational ideals I have for my own way in the world. Thank you.
(((HUGS))) I hope everything smooths out soon for you and yours.
(((Vibes)))
Look how many people you help and inspire, just by being who you are and doing what you do. Thumbs up.
Thank you loves! You all keep me happy that I keep a blog.