Two days ago my left hip felt a bit stiff; yesterday it woke me in absolute shattering pain. Alarming, really – I’d never had hip trouble before and certainly no trouble with a weight-bearing joint. It was bad enough Ralph and Beeps took me to Urgent Care for an evaluation, and was sent home with crutches and instructions to take an Alleve every eight hours, stay off the offending leg, and ice like a sonofabitch.
The treatment seems to have helped as today I felt about five hundred percent better. I am a bit irritated, however: clearly I retained a sports injury from my daily yoga, and it came (seemingly) out of nowhere and after what I thought was exceedingly mindful practice. The whole episode has left me a little shifted off center. I don’t get too upset about an injury or a setback; I do, however, feel peevish at the thought of re-injuring myself, and not knowing how to avoid it.
I am trying to move through my studio work: a wedding dress (finishing tomorrow!), two tunics and trousers (also finishing tomorrow), alterations for a client, three sweaters, and a bomber jacket. These are the items I have to finish before I can move on to something fun – or a birthday gift for my son, who turns fourteen in four days. And in between this entry and the last, I built a whole fricken’ website for a client! I am a busy little beaver.
Our kitty Pip curls up at my left elbow; he’s waiting for Ralph to climb into bed, so he can cram his little face in my husband’s armpit. Our evenings are familiar and cozy. I am increasingly in less agonies that my children no longer sleep with me – one of the biggest adjustments I’ve made in years. Time races through my hands and I can’t grasp it but in moments I can slow it down just a little.
Tomorrow: a tulle skirt in satin, and Chinese takeout with a girlfriend while we watch a horrible slasher.
4/3/2018:
I am grateful for deep sleep last night, and to wake rested.
I am grateful for sunshine and a lovely day today!
I am grateful for hot coffee in the morning, and some cooking for the kids. I am grateful for a peaceful home and time to myself.
I am grateful for the health and safety of my partner and children.
I am grateful my hip injury is healing so quickly and easily.
I am grateful I finished a lot of work today – a wedding dress, two tunics, a pair of trousers (hemming), and rebuilding the sleeves of a top.
I am grateful for another movie night with Nicole!
I am grateful for friends who text me throughout the day. I have so many friends on Facebook – about 1600 – and I mentioned my hip injury and only one person said a word. I am grateful for people who pay attention to what I share.
I am grateful for yoga. Being as careful as possible!
I am grateful for a hot shower and cozy pajamas and a soft bed.
Goodnight!
4/4/2018:
I woke up super early but was able to fall asleep again and get more hours; I am very grateful for that!
I am grateful for hot coffee in the morning, and for a peaceful and welcoming home to drink it in.
I am grateful for some time sewing with a gorgeous knit fabric, and to be most of the way through a lovely sweater.
I am grateful for my yoga practice – every day this year! I am grateful I am still able to practice despite an injury.
Some of my clients are behind on paying me but I’m not pressed. I know they will. It’s a little financial hardship and today I had to take a long drive to make a deposit BUT I mean it’s one of the only ‘meh’ things about being self-employed.
I am grateful for a trip with my Beeps and Ralph, and dinner together.
I am grateful for my sobriety, and for my journaling and gratitude practice.
I am grateful for dinner tonight – making up some biryani for the cookbook we are self-publishing.
I am grateful for kitty snuggles today. Little Herbert Pocket was extremely affectionate!
I am grateful for a hot shower and cozy pajamas and a soft warm and safe bed, with my partner!
Goodnight!
4/6/2018:
I am grateful for deep sleep last night, and to wake feeling rested.
I am grateful for coffee in the morning, and to sit at my dining table and handstitch.
I am grateful for cuddles with both children.
I had two assignments today and I was very worn out but I finished them. I am grateful for that!
I am grateful for dinner tonight – deep binch pizza!
I am grateful for errands today and for sunshine.
I am grateful for friends who text me during the day, and for people who keep me in the loop about their life.
I am grateful for yoga practice tonight – an easy practice. I am so tired and busted-ass right now so an easy practice was just my speed.
I am grateful for a hot shower and cozy bed and for a partner to sleep besides.
Goodnight!