guilty pleasures, then & now

Current crutches:
avocado, egg, and cheese breakfast sangich at On Common Grounds
Twin Peaks (only at the end of Season One, so no spoilers!)
dynamite roll at Sentosa (or, “Satan’s Middle Finger Roll” due to hot sauce)
red wine (a perennial for myself)
pinching my children’s bottoms (sooooooo nice)

Fallen out of vogue:
cigarettes (so last week)
chocolate (only while Jodi was here)
breves (only with Abbi)

birthday party 3.0

Things went off well for the little girl yesterday. We had a lot of guests, a lovely cake, and a few out-of-town visitors as well. Most of our guests knew of and respected our “no gift needed” policy, but some friends brought her a few great books and miscellaneous gifts. My parents and brother were here half the day and very helpful in running after kids, food prep, and pizza-stealing. Unfortuately the day really wore Jodi and I out, so on our last night together we were too tired to watch a movie or hang out. As soon as the kids were in bed she and I took to the sheets ourselves.

Sophie’s favorite book these days is a Richard Scarry compilation. It’s very sweet. She woke up in the middle of the night and asked if I would read to her about Couscous, the Algerian Detective.

Ralph is feeding the kids, then it’s time for nap. We are out of coffee! My current cup was made with half the necessary grounds. Lame.

family life on a friday

This morning was one of those great wake-up days. At about a quarter to seven, our little girl pads into our room and quietly rouses us: “I have to pee.” I am vaguely aware of my husband getting up with her to help. A bit later I hear breakfast noises. At 7:30 he leaves for work after kissing me goodbye. I am still in the land of slumber. My son has managed to get in our bed again sometime in the early AM; he snuggles in close to me and I am gradually surfacing, hearing the clank of spoon against bowl in the kitchen. Our guests aren’t awake yet. Sunlight streams in through my bedroom window and peace is in the air.

At about 7:45, my son starts to toss a little. He knows he is in bed with me so he does not fuss. Finally, he sits up and rubs his eyes. And rubs them again. I am warm in bed, content to watch him waking up. After a few eye-rub repetitions, he sees me, smiles and crawls over for a kiss. We talk and I pet him. After a few minutes of loving I pick him up and go into the bathroom for a pee, take him into the living room and set him down. Sophie greets me good morning and goes back to her hot cereal. The kids are content and my morning feels great. Time for a cup of coffee.

At 8 our guests start to stir. Cyan shares in the hot cereal; Jodi has some toast. In the next 45 minutes we get our kids ready, clean up breakfast, trade shower time while the girls are treated to a few read-aloud stories. The Mamas are ready and kids are in their coats. We load the kids up and the neighbor dog Dwight joins us. With everyone strapped in and content we head out to a favorite coffee house / cafe for breakfast sandwiches which we take to H.J. Carroll Park in Chimacum. Dwight frolics and eats what the kids don’t; moms enjoy sustenance and conversation. Time to head into town again, so six full tummies and one four-alarm tantrum later we are on our way back. I drop Jodi off to visit her mom and take my kids home. Potty; diaper; snack; a few stories; a nursing; bedtime for Nels. Cyan and Jodi arrive and we take the little girls out to water Sophie and Ralph’s strawberries, 14 plants that are flourishing thanks to the TLC from our little girl. Then it’s time for milk, a short story, and nap.

I have a lot on my plate these days. It’s taking discipline and careful planning to not get overwhelmed or screw up and forget something important. I could be worried about the big party for Sophie tomorrow – of which I haven’t bought or planned food or cake yet – however I think that’s going to come off fine. I could also be in a state about our week’s guests and entertaining them – but luckily Jodi and I have a good time together just doing our normal routine. No, instead what is looming large is my friend’s Blessingway (which is an imposing event and in about eight days) and a few sewing commitments due before Easter, not to mention a couple sets of out-of-town guests on their way in the next couple days. Cripes!

I have always prided myself on keeping my schedule at a normal pace. I am also fortunate in that my husband can literally handle anything that comes up, usually in a remarkably fast and efficient manner. But every once in a while things loom up and get a little tricky. I am just glad right now NO ONE is sick or being a pain in the ass! (fingers crossed).

OK, Jodi’s making brownies. Caffeine and chocolate – has sustained us through our week.

the Great Bus Adventure

This morning we fare even better. The Man gets out the door to work on time; Jodi and I even manage to get the three little ones dressed, fed, and cleaned up with a minimum of fuss. Jodi does the breakfast dishes while Kelly packs the diaper bag and greedily grabs three minutes in the bathroom to slap on some makeup. It’s 9 o’clock sharp and time to head out the door to catch the bus.

I love that the bus goes right by my house
(Grant & 14th). We bundle Nels up in hat and blanket and walk with two girls and a stroller down to the corner. Abbi shows up just in time and joins us with her 2 1/2 year old Liv. The bus arrives: three mamas, four babies, two fetuses, and $3.75 later we are seated. Jodi and Abbi sit in the back with the toddlers; Nels is up front with me. He eyes a beautiful malamute with golden eyes who joins us on the first leg of uptown. The girls are all content and Abbi and Jodi catch up on pregnancy and home life. We arrive at our stop uptown and haul our asses off the bus, me holding everyone up as I fuck with the giant stroller which I still haven’t figured out the perfect way to ascend and descend the bus steps. Of course, I am often offered help in this endeavor by kind strangers and this morning is no exception.

We hit Sweet Laurette’s for coffee and the bakery for our lunch and dinner bread needs. Diaper change #1, Liv. Nels falls asleep. One child, easy to maintain. At the bakery the girls each get a wheat roll to munch on and then it’s off to the bell tower for the view. The girls scrabble around in the gravel. Mamas speculate on the outdoor smoking, and drinking, and sex that has probably occurred on this historic site (hey, that’s what we did when we were young and white trash). We head downtown through a treacherous hill trail toward our destination: Pope Marine Park.

At the park: playtime, a wee beach pee for Sophie, diaper change #2, Cyan. More snacks for Moms. Port Townsend is a pain in the ass when it comes to food to go, especially in the morning. At 10 AM all one can expect to find are many variations on nutritionally and energetically bankrupt (albeit delicious) starchy sweets. Kelly and Sophie venture forth and find something with some protein and some steamed milk for the girls. The girls play; climb; swing; slide; beachcomb; eat. Back to the bus stop. A bus ride and transfer. More fucking with the stroller. We’re home, and goodbye to Abbi and Olivia.

Jodi and I plant the girls in front of some TV to make lunch. After we eat we clean kids up, read, snuggle, and it’s time for naps. Diaper change for Nels, a little playtime, and then nursing peacefully off to sleep. Time to break out the chocolate and coffee for Jodi and I; we’ve earned it.

two wives, three kids, and a bun in the oven

So starts the first morning of a new partnership. For a week it will be Jodi and I corralling our three little ones and she’s knocked up to boot. Things are going well so far. The two girls are ecstatic to have a playmate their own age and are still high off the fun of a new friendship. Sophie is alternately bossy and helpful to the littler girl, much more scattered than usual and less of a help to Mama. Cyan is a willing accomplice.

The Man leaves for work a few minutes late at quarter to eight, toothbrush poking out of his mouth. Then it’s on to Jodi and I to get ready for the day. Changing diapers. Helping with the potty. Putting hair up. Dressing three kids. I get my brood ready and Jodi and her girl are at the table for breakfast #2. Michelle arrives to help with housework while we’re out, so I let her have care of my children for my 15 minutes to myself. I step into the shower and experience a few wonderful minutes of washing my face, scrubbing my scalp. The hiss and splash of the water obfuscates whatever the hell is going on out in the living room. By the time I am dressed and my hair dry Paige is here too. It’s time to go. The ratio of four adults to three kids allows us to get carseats, kids, diaperbags, etc all loaded up in the car in a timely fashion.

Stop at the husband’s work to pick up some cash. Drive through for coffee. Head to playschool. Kids run around; parents steal an hour for “class” in the next room. Normal chit-chat: how to get our kids to eat, unfairness along gender lines of parenting, sex (or lack thereof). There are two husbands there and they valiantly stick up for “their side” of the whole mess. Three of the women at the table are pregnant. All of us are looking for a safe place and strength in numbers. We head back to the kids’ room and sing, pack everyone up, head home.

Groceries and then home for lunch: sandwiches, pickles, carrot sticks, tomato soup, milk. Kids are winding down; lunch is cleaned up; children are changed, nursed, soothed, read to.

I figure Jodi and I have twenty minutes to talk with no distractions before it’s time to get back to work – wash diapers, do laundry, figure out dinner, do dishes, and get our kids to the grocery store again before heading home to cook. Foreseeing this brief respite we have stocked up on good coffee and some bistro cookies (carefully hidden from the kids).

Time to enjoy a break.

ahhh, we all have one of these…

Don’t bother saying you’re sorry / Why don’t you come in? / Smoke all my cigarettes again Everytime I get no further / How long has it been? Come on in now, wipe your feet on my dreams. You take up my time / Like some cheap magazine When I could have been learning something / Well, you know what I mean. I’ve done this before / And I will do it again C’mon and kill me baby / While you smile like a friend Oh and I’ll come running / Just to do it again. You are that last drink I never should have drunk You are the body hidden in the trunk You are the habit I can’t seem to kick You are my secrets on the front page every week You are the car I never should have bought You are the train I never should have caught You are the cut that makes me hide my face You are the party that makes me feel my age. You’re like a car crash I can see but I just can’t avoid You’re like a plane I’ve been told I never should board You’re like a film that’s so bad but I’ve just got to stay ‘til the end Let me tell you – that it’s lucky for you that we’re friends.

thanks CR


facelift for blog, maybe i’ll actually write in it?

OK, it’s been a while. But it’s time to blog.

What’s new? We’re liking the new, happy, spring-ish weather. Gardening and stuff. Sophie is growing her own strawberry plants which she faithfully waters, talks about, and expounds on to any stranger who will (or won’t) listen. Sophie turned three last week (*and* weaned *and* potty-trained). We’re having a little get-together for her at Chetzemoka park.

We also just put out a new Breeder in Feb. We have enough content for a March issue which should follow soon. This latest issue was featured in the latest Vigilance, a local indie rag with a much larger distribution than our pathetic readership (5,000 to our 200). Will fortune and fame find Kelly and Amber in their most worthy enterprise? It remains to be seen, dear reader.

My good friend Jodi should be here within a half hour! I am so excited. She and her 2 year old daughter Cyan are staying for about a week.

happy weaning

Make Way For Duckling

Just like that, you are weaned. Like the three years that prefaced the last morning you nursed, breastfeeding evolved beautifully to meet both our needs. This morning, instead of watching you nurse, I hold you in my arms and you quietly stroke my face. Later that evening at your request we hide ourselves in the bathroom and I paint your nails a bright red in honor of your third birthday. I hold your tiny toes and you look me in the eyes and say, “I love you so much, Mama.”

With pure dumb luck I fell into the category who finds breastfeeding deeply satisfying on physical, emotional, intellectual, and spiritual levels. So to move away from this relationship feels major; I sometimes feel we’ve known one another forever. And for as long as I’ve known you, nursing has been so instrumental in the way we connect.

Little girl, I am so blessed as your mother. You above all taught me what it means to nurture. We nursed through two pregnancies and one miscarriage. We nursed in the evenings, mornings, at restaurants, in church, and in the bath. You nursed the morning of the arrival of your baby brother and shared the breast willingly with him. We nursed through the scary illness you had at 14 months when you couldn’t even keep water down; nursing saved you from many other would-be illnesses and eased many transitions. Nursing kept me laughing and let me put my feet up more often than I would have without it.

Now at this milestone you emerge confident, and I have the deep satisfaction of knowing I didn’t rush your babyhood for either of us. Yesterday you climbed into bed with me and after a few quiet moments you looked up at me and said, “I used to nurse with you in the morning. Do you remember this?” as if it were ages ago, not a few days. You were obviously so comfortable with this change, while I got one of the first of many moments to come where I act casual and give a quick hug; tears well up and I blink them away. I am so happy to see you confident and growing. But just yesterday you were still my baby at my breast.

Happy weaning, Sophie. My little Beak.

3rd Birthday, Sophie / Phoenix

Fort Warden

Kiki!

Hysterical, 1

Hysterical, 2